Taugey Island "My Mind"

JOURNEY TO THE ISLAND MYSELF!!!

2009-02-16T07:31:00.000-08:00

I took a ticket and swimming as fast I can. I can hear the music calling me from a distance. It made my journey much more fun and happening!!! I could feel the wave come over me like a great power that filled me up from head to toe. Would never think it would be this great! I feel like I can do anything. And anything can do anything too. Why is that you ask? I can't really explain!
I stopped for a second to take a breather. The water was so nice and COOOoooLing then laded back and look into the sky to see the starts dancing to the music from the distance. Wondering why am I the only one here. there use to be a lot of us swimming to the Island and now it just...

Never knew it will be just...

Why am I worried about that! I have my self and I hehehe taugey thinking naughty thoughts. lets just go man! the music is calling us hahahaa!!! swimming harder and harder, telling myself its just a few more strokes away. from where I am, I can see the Island and its so F**king beautiful... Lights of all different colors moving left to right. Pink taugey trees dancing to the music and the pink taugey sand jumpping to the beat. there's a party and its all mine for the taking. nothing can beat this feeling!

NOTHING.

Finaly I reach the beating pink taugey sands of the Island and its so so F**KING BE A U TI FULLL!!!

This is where I am...

Here I will stay waiting for you my little animal friends...

p/s

bring some redbull I forgot to stock up just now :)

Conversation with the new and improved veg! change to fruit! Mr. BANANA MAN.

2007-11-30T12:30:00.000-08:00

I see little banana man runing around in my head...his saying jump! but I cant Im too high up. well, maybe later. sometimes I wish I could jump but I cant. too many things to think about but banana man says there is no use thinking! just jump! so what do you say to that?should jump?I dont know ay...very very funny funny this banana... I keep telling him I cant. my Island frineds arent here.they still in reality and if I jump I'll be all alone in the Island. silly banana man.
so when can you jump then?! I'v been waiting so so fucking long for you to jump! for all of you to jump! we will... soon I promise! soon soon, just wait... NO I wan now! mr. banana man, times has change. we all arent all together at the same time anymore like before. Im working, the others, some are studying some have just grown out of the Island. BUT I can promise you when we all get together again. we will jump. promise.... ok ok... I'll wait. remember your promise dude! the music, the pink taugey sand, THE ISLAND will be waiting for you... ALL of you... im tired now. me too. see you soon.

one on one...saved by the bell.

2007-08-11T09:37:00.000-07:00

last night.

An old friend from KL came to miri passing by. and she never really gone around miri before so I decided to take her out clubbing show her how its like here. Its been maybe a month since i'v been out clubbing so I was quit happy to be out. since I stop smoking, drinking been a bitch...feels like somethings missing. just the smell makes me so happy hehe. enough about smoking! making me think about it again!
Anyways we were at a night club that was really dead...and all of us were just looking at each other so "blur" like what are we doing here! what we doing next? so, we decided to go to another place where we always go to to party. didnt think of going there coz I my friend doesnt like trance music but now that the R n B club sucked dead! what to do...go lah.
got there...mat more friends and partied. then I realized that some of me mates were unhappy with the white guys standing around our table. It seems that they were disturbing the girls at our table. I didnt think much about it coz they werent disturbing my girlfriend, my sister or my KL friend. after an hour or two the guys went downstairs for some reason. so I was left with the girls.
Then One of the white guys did something that just piss the hell out of me. He took of his shirt and asked my sister to take hers off. and grab her top and put his sweaty shirt down my sisters shirt. I was thinking to my self "Oh no he didnt do that!" I went in the middle of them and look at the white fuck in the face. at that moment, all these crazy thoughts were going through my mind. like how Im going to beat the shit out of this guy. the guy was shorter then me but much more bigger then me. but I didnt really care about that I was too pissed of to think about that. I told him, you got a problem dickhead?!!? he replied no, you got a problem? she your girlfriend? I said no, shes my sister! your being really disrespectfull, you forget this isnt white man city...why dont you get out of my face! before someone gets heart and I mean you! and at this time I was thinking to my self, all the guys were downstairs and the only people with me were the girls. and if this goes down, I'd have a hard time taking this guy down myself coz his big...big big! but short... now my plan was for him to take the first punch. and to do that I have to piss him off. so I did... he was asking me "do we have a problem?" again and again. while he was doing this... I just looked at him not answering and ignoring him. he pushed, I pushed but still no punch...his friends came up to him asking him to back off, asking me to back off. all I was thinking was "punch me! punch me!"
then I just stoped. not because I was scared, hell no I wasnt! I havent had a good fight in years. but what can I say, I have a soft spot for my girl. she pulled me and told me to stop. you can say shes my krypeonite... I was still pissed but what to do... Im much more of a lover then a fighter. I dont want to explan much about what happened after that...just that we shook with beers in our hands.

sad...yes...

2007-05-02T11:45:00.000-07:00

In the beginning, my friends were inseparable. but today I saw something that I thought I'd never see happen between them. one was thinking of breaking up with the other and the other... I don't know what his thinking...he just seemed angry and "don't care" attitude.
they both are good friends of mine and its so sad how 2 people that love each other so much, but now thinking of ending it. like the saying goes... "shit happens"
but why too them???

me and my girl...when we watch this happen, we get scared...thinking negative thoughts "what if this happens to us" but tend to block out these thoughts coz I never wana see this happen to my relationship.

"SHIT HAPPENS"

it will.... just not in my relationship...

Part 1: Racist night at sunshine coast. wonderfull...

2007-04-22T02:35:00.000-07:00

how should I start my post...
well, this is my first post in a few months, haven't had much time to go online. But now that I'v graduated from Fitness school, I'm abit more free now.

I just got back from a holiday trip to sunshine coast, and the glasshouse mountains, which I didn't think look anything like glass houses... 2 nights in sunshine coast and a whole day around the mountains and at a water fall. well, don't really know what the name of the place though. I went with my cuzen and her baby daughter and her god-daughter. yes... was the only guy in the group and didn't really feel like a holiday coz I had to carry all the stuff around.

SUNSHINE COAST.
Nice....
thats really all I can say... I didn't see anything that really interest me. Only, big waves and skim boards. yes, skim boards...it's like playing skeatboard on water. wish I could buy one to bring back but, my begs are just too full. And people there aren't very nice, like they never seen an asian! and they think all Asian's are Japanise or chinese...even though I'm not jap or chinese, I was offended...fuck, I'd like to bet the shit out of those guys that night...
The story goes like this...it was friday night, my cuzen thought that I was bored lying on my bed looking at my phone waiting for my girlfriend to call. That... she was right. I was bored out of my mind! I was just hoping these 2 nights would go by fast. So, my cuzen brought us out into the town by the beach...duH! where els...anyways... we went by the beach eating ice-cream...that was the best part of the trip...eating ice-cream....yuMMmm. wait, that was the only good part of my trip there..oh ya, and the fish and chips. anyways, after ice-cream my cuzen ask me to take a walk up the beach to see what ever that was there... "in my head" (sounds on crikkets). so I went off for my why in the hell am I walking up the beach adventure. guess what I saw... the sea!!!....and more sea...more and more sea... and guess what els...sand!!! and more sand...more and more sand... isn't that great? wow! damn wonderfull right! if you don't already know, yes... I'm not really joyfull to see all that crap. then I got a phone call from a old friend of mine from KL. we were talking about old times at the rainforest music festival,about how drunk we'd get and what stupid situations we'd get our selfs into. yes...those were the days.... OH! sorry, back to the story. anyways I was just talking to a friend of mine and then, these drunk guys just walked passed me and said "suzuki, kawasaki, honda hello!!" I didn't reply them coz I was on the phone and then one of them said "your full of your self!!" I turned around and they pull the finger on me. I don't have problems with australians but that was just fucked! plus I'm not Jap. I just wanted to bet the fuck out of those guys! I had it all planed out in my head alreay.

first, take a empty bottle off the flour and hit one over the head, when the other guy turns around, stab him in his ribs with the broken glass and the third guy comes in for a punch, move to the right and kick him in the balls, then knee him in the face.BUT....

ofcos that was all in my head... it was getting late and it's time for the babys nap. got to the car the baby didn't want to go yet. so we just played with her at the car park a little longer. a few minutes later these 2 couples walk out of a bar by the car park. one of them walked our way and in the distence, while walking side to side and pulling up his pants he said "hey ching chong, you want my bum bum??" then mooned us(put down his pants and showed his ass). there were 3 girls with me and one was 12 and the other was a baby. how fucked up are these people!!! plus Im not chinese! I was pissed off man!! then he came up to me like he wanted to kiss me and just looked at me. I just said "what you want? you feeling lucky...PUNK!" but...no I didn't do that. wish I did though... you know the movie scarface and that crazy sound comes on when he finds out his bestfriend is married with his sister? anyways I had that in my head when that fuck head did that. then another image came into my head.

run up behind him with a pipe, hit him over the head with it, then pull his pants down and kick the pipe up his ass! BUT AGAIN....

that was just a thought...
EEEevViIIiilLL, I know...but what they did wasn't very nice TooOOo.
then after all that racizem... we got stop by the cops. at lest this was coz my cuzen didn't turn on her lights.
that was the high light of my first night.

2nd night, nothing much...saw a Fox come up to our door stap looking for food.wish I had a camara!

GLASSHOUSE MOUNTAINS.

To be continued.... Im damn tired. need sleep...

Learnt something new. wish I knew this earlier. can save face.

2007-02-07T04:24:00.000-08:00

every month my school sends a fitness magazin to the students. and this mag was given when I started class weeks ago but I just didnt bother to read it. Till... today.

I dont know what to say...

If only I knew earlier...

I feel stupid telling people to do it. THINKING it's the best way....

Kerry McEvoy
(Master Trainer)
QSCS Certifield Strength and Conditioning Specialist.

says,
sit-ups and crunches is not and will never be functional! these movements DO NOT burn fat,they do not "tone" your tummy muscles and they do not give you a "six pack". ect...ect...

better and more functional work outs are chin-ups, push-ups, squats and lunges-all big exersises that force your abdominals to work very hard in the upright position-the way they were meant to!

YES......fuck me!!
I'v been giving people advice on how to exersise and I was so SOOoo fucking wrong about this one. anyways now you all know it doesn't work. so no more sit-up guys... it dont work. hahaha.

but good news. when I come back. I'll have all the right answers and you'll have to pay me to train you.hahaha.

my birthday.

2007-01-24T07:20:00.000-08:00

On my birthday my friends brought me out into the town to party. we got "BUNDABERG" its RUM mix with cola. in cans. oh man, its the best stuff i ever drank.you guys back home are missing it. anyways, so we drinking meeting up with old friends is always fun. talk about old times and meet they girlfriends and girl--friends hehhee..dont be jelouse honey. so the night goes on and my friend kok yew says Black is coming soon. his bringing something ""special"" i wondered to my self hrmmm...i wonder what it is...then, thru the disco lights and people raving on the dance floor, i saw a face. a face we all knew. its Black!!! i called out to him but he didnt answer, i dont think he heard. he was walking up to the DJ. then suddenly the music voluam went down. DJ says "im sorry to stop the music guys but theres a birthday boy in here give it up for T.I!!!!" and the croud goes wild! getting hugs from people i dont know.getting shots! and the music was boumming! i was so high. but not drunk. i needed something stronger...out of no where black jumps me and sfuffs something in my mouth. i didnt ask, i just took. i know what it was...stoom... just what the doctor prescribe. not long after...everything was hushhHHhhh...i dont know how to explan it. i just wanted to move move move move move!!!! i never felt so great! i was back in the ISLAND but with out my ISLAND friends. but i knew they were islandING with me where ever they were. that was the best ever first birthday in BRISBANE.

"solomon, what is the are the questions you ask a potential client before starting a fitness progrem??" "solomon...solomon..."

FUCK MAN!!!! it was all a fucking DAY DREAM! hahahhaha!!! i was in class when this happen...you know how embarrasing that was cibai....

my birthday...
was suppose to meet 2 friends in town. no noney,didnt bring my passport out and didnt have a ride back home. didnt tell my aunty its my birthday today. didnt feel like celebrating. all my close friends family and my girl not here didnt seem to be worth it. so im home after class. and now online with my girl. talking and $%^*((* i can not say hehehe. and geting smses from friends. well, ONE sms from A FRIEND josh! to all friends "hint" "hint".... sad sad sad...im 22 with no gf,friends and family to enjoy with. sad sad sad...

added note just after i post this.

just got the phone call. i totally for got. im in australia and time diffrents! hahahha! thanks for calling guys!!!! love you guys and not in a gay way.

The Summary of my first week in OziLanD.

2007-01-06T03:14:00.000-08:00

31th/12/2006
Reached the Brisbane airport after a bumpy flight... I didnt mind tho, kinda use to it... just that this plane was bigger. went in show passport, gards going tru my bags bla bla bla BUT... the first funny thing that happend when I got there. they went tru her bag and she had bananas. and it seems that you can't bring bananas into australia. the gard told her she can't bring it in coz of bla bla bla and asked if she would like to eat them now or just let them throw the bananas away. well, she said she'll eat them. so well, I thought it was just a few bananas but when i look over. there was like a big bag of bananas and she just ate and ate and asking everyone around if they wanted any hahaha! it was funny but kinda sad too.
it's summer here in Brisbane, and EVERYONE said it's going to be bloody HOT. so I took of my jacket and bini. mat my aunty that I haven't seen in years and grandparents that are here for holiday... hugs and kisses bla bla bla... how are you bla bla bla... all that hellow, nice to see you crap. got out of the airport. and it... was...NOT... HOT... AT... ALL... you fucking assholes! its not even hot man! it was fucking cold man! reach home... my new home and mat my uncle phil that I also haven't mat in years and doesn't like to be called uncle haha. had a few beers, talk about family bla bla bla... when it got to 12am just gave happy new year hugs and that was it. my new years... fucking sad ay...
01th/01/2007 the new year.
couldn't sleep. guessing coz of the time diffrents but mostly it's coz i miss HER... yes, the girlfriend. what can I say, I love my chick... everyone woke up late. late breakfas. had bacon, beans, potatos and eggs. yes... it was the best!! then followed my aunty to the shops bla bla bla that was my afternoon. at night, on the net. sad...yes.
02/01/2007.
went shoping with me aunty at a mole near by. nothing special just alot of white people. you can count the asians. but we were the only one's that day. sad...not really, have to get use to it anyways. and that's the day I got my phone number. "virginMobile" same company as virgin recoards. weird but cool ay.
03/01/2007
SSDD(same shit diffrent day)...play warcraft3. bOring...
04/01/2007
damn funny thing happend on thursday. my grandparents wanted to see the sugercane farm that day and like a good grandson I followed.well, didn't have much to do at home anyways.thinking to myself, this is new... no MALASIAN cars. while on the freeway. from a far, I saw a busted, bruned up car blue in colour. I thought to myself, that's normal in miri or kuching. when we got closer.... guess what... the car was a PROTON WIRA!!!!! hahahahaha!!! man, australian must hate Malaysian alot hahahaha! saw the sugercane farm bal bla bla...
05/01/2007
friday was a good day. went shopping with aunty again for dinner at my uncle's parents place(the Ozi side of the family).got change and ready to go but felt out of place. everyone was wearing SARONG or isit SARUNG. anyways me and uncle phil cant be bothered. we were the only ones wearing shots.it seems we were celebriting a late christmas and new year. food was great... did the meet the family thing bla bla bla. was good fun.
06/01/2007
woke up in the morning to follow uncle phil and his dad(bryan) to throw grabage to the dump. fun? not really... the dump smelled like dump. and never seen so much garbage in my life.good place to dump bodys. hahaha! but it was nice to be out of the house tho. then later in the afternoon we had a big lunch. my aunty invited her friends that were from malaysia and those who use to work in malaysia. and mat a few old mates from kuching. my little sister's bestfriend and one of my goodfriend's sister... yes they were all girls... honey, they old friends of mine. dont worry... you can ask my sister who they are k. talking about old times and about whats new. fun? very....
07/01/2007
before i talk about today. i wana say someone should BUY THIS NUMBER MAN! "070107" man if they had 6D here i buy already hahahahha!
anyways sunday...had to wake up at 6.30am to get ready for church. well, my aunty had to be there earlier so what to do. now im so fucking tired. all i want to do is sleep.

Now, thats my week.over all... it was good. just was missing my sweetheart. like always... yes... "EMO!!!"

tomorro will be my first day in brisbane city to meet up with someone from the coll im going to. now, that a new week... will see if there is anything interasting that might happen. you never know when it come to Taugey.

Saddes day of my life. what I should of done but didnt.

2006-12-31T06:58:00.000-08:00

31th... the day before the new year...
5.50am sitting in the airport. first time I didnt have much to say... but talking shit, telling and lisening to stupid jokes that was actually funny and kept looking at the clock to check how much time do I have left and hopping, wishing I had more. And but still, didnt have much to say... I guess I didnt say shit is coz I'd go crybaby on my family and girlfriend. ya, I am a crybaby. I'm sucker when it comes to goodbyes.
Ticket says boarding time 0630. I went in at 6.15am. wishing I should of used my last 15minits to say what I wanted to say. but no, I was too worrried that I might miss my plane. everyone knows that won't happen. it was bloody 6.00 in the morning! the people that check in after me still got on the plane! but no, I was too proud. dont want anyone to see me cry! who the fuck cares! they dont know me! I'm leaving for a fucking long time, I have right to! but no.... I was being stupid. thinking too much.
My good byes... when I think back, it was fucked up ay!. only if I could of gone back in time, I'd walk up behind ME while ME is saying ME's goodbyes, tap his back...when ME truns around give ME a nice hard Tyson punch in ME's face. then pick ME up and tell ME to say what ME, I wanted to say to my
big brother : now that your back with the family, you have to take care of them. like our wild little sister that gets drunk alot. make sure she's ok and not getting in trouble. take care of mum and dad... mum still crying, dad pretending not to...they'll be over it soon. and love you bro... even tho we sometime dont see eye to eye. hahaha, get it??? eye?? I gave you a blue eye one time?? nvm... but ya, you take care dude.

my 2 bests mates : stoping being a dicks. thats all. no, joking... we'v been friends for like for ever longer as cuzens. this might sound gay to some people. fuck them... you'v always been there for me when I needed a friend. well, you guys still can but not like always. gona miss you guys man! hanging out, talking shit and STOOMING! love you guys. take care of tadpole for me mates. she's got my heart.

lastly, my darling going to miss dradfully girlfriend : please dont cry... coz everytime you cry I'll cry harder. I'll miss you every second we'er apart... like when my eyes blink while I'm looking at you, when I just let go of your hand, and like when I turn around and walk away. you make me so happy, you have my heart that why I'm feeling so sad. I love you...

Then............. ask ME to wipe ME's face, slap MEself over the head. then back to my time. then I'd feel abit better about myself but it doesn't work like that, does it....

For my darling girlfriends eyes only.
so, in a few minits I'll lying in my bed lisening to Damien Rice " the blowers daughter" crying myself to sleep. I missing you!!!! yes you!!! I know your reading my blog. say it with me... "WE" will work... ok.

Just filling in the empty spaces with family and friends.

2006-12-10T10:51:00.000-08:00

Im with my girl now and Im missing already. 20 more great,loving, days with my girlfriend before I leave. HOW???? keep asking my self that... but also I keep telling my self it going to work. coz I got a good feeling about this one. "she's a keeper" I wish things could be different... like I could "stay...." but no... the world doesn't work like that, everything has to go the way the wind blows hehehe. thats so bullshit!!! fucking bullshit!!! I just wana see things go my way once a while!!! you know...
well, I got her to my hometown "KUCHING" for a week for my cuZens wedding but actually wasnt suppose to go... I was at her place that night then in the morning my mum just calls and tells me I have to go this MORNING!!! its was 8:30am and my flight was at 10:30am. yesterday they said no. now they telling me Im leaving in a few hours! but that day I was planing to have a romatic dinner with her but fate AGAIN cuts us off again. but lucky, she came 2days after... 1point to me and 1point for Fate. hahaha suck on that! you cant take that away from me! on the way to pick her up from the airport it felt like, when I was younger in my school days hormones going wild. well, I always loved it when the school bell rings to go home. I was in a boys school and the girls school was on the other side and just couldnt wait to see the girls hahahaa or like on your birthday you would just cant wait to open the presents! thats how I felt!!!! JUST COULDNT WAIT!!!! Im what you call a shy guy when it come to girls... only when Im drunk or high then I'll be the MAN hahaha. I had everything planed in my mind that I'd go up to her and hug her kiss her. like something that came out of a bolliwood movie hehehe. well, like i said "SHY" small hug took her bag put it into the boot..................

Thats all.............................

why am I so stupid!!!!!

girlfriend come all the way here just for me and thats how I welcomed her!!!! I feel so stupid!

BAD CLIMAX right!!!!!!!!!

anyways, she came on my CuZens wedding day so we had to rush to the church. well, the actual point of her coming was to meet me cuzens on the other side of sarawak. she has met most of my familly in miri. and coz when Im gone and she'll still be here, she will have more friends and know who to look for if she gets into any problems and be safe so I dont have to worry so much... I think I worry too much. not worried that she'll cheat on me. just worried "if shes ok kinda thing" what can I say, I LOVE MY CHICK. hehehe...

now Im back with her in miri. and hoping, praying and wishing that these 20 days would last forever... I know I sound so fucking EmO but cant help it. 4 years with out seeing her face, touch of her skin, her lips on mine, her sweet smile, and the sound of her voice face to face. wish it wasnt this hard but it is...

this is my promis to you my love.

I'll wait and wait and wait as long as it takes....

Love
your darling boyfriend.

great words from the rapper BustaRyems... "I LOVE MY CHICK"

2006-11-03T07:50:00.000-08:00

Just want everyone!! to know... you're lucky, not much people don't read my blog hehehe...

I was outstationed for about 2 weeks. "work" of cos... all I could think of was my girl. most of the time I couldn't sms or call cos I was in an area where there wasn't any coverage. I was wondering what she's doing? where she is? who is she with? is she ok? and if she was thinking of me....? what can I say, I LOVE MY CHICK.

we were friends before we got together. we were goOOd Friends.... I don't really know what happened. I knew she was hot, really sweet, smart, friendly and out going. well, I won't pretend that I had the hots for her...BUT she was a friend and hooking up with a friend wasn't an option for me... don't ask cos I normally don't date friends. also it's cos if it didn't work out, we might not be friends again so I took her as a little sister. keep telling myself that again and again. BUT I guess FATE just took over. all our friends say we look good together, I think we ARE good to together. what can I say, I LOVE MY CHICK.

That's just a bit of info for you about how we got together.

So like I said, I was outstationed for 2 bloody weeks and all I could think of was going back to her. when I was away, my job doesn't provide handphone reloads... didn't have much money at that time, just had enough for food. just when I was thinking of SMSing her to tell her i don't have much credit left. she reloaded my phone for me! I bet you guys out there wish you had a girl like mine, right?? that just made me miss her more... what I love about her is that she's great to talk to, she laughs at my jokes, she has a great smile, sexy! she's really bad at jokes... but i think that's really cute, and sometimes she says the sweetest things like... there was this one night when I was about to sleep after a hard day at work, i'd sms her and say lovey dovey things, good night sweet dreams kinda stuff and she replied back with "miss you, love you too... KISS ON FOREHEAD" most of you should know that a kiss on the forehead is more meaningfull then a kiss on the lips. I found it funny but at the same time... you know, that's what you call LOVE suckers... can you dig that!? I know, you'd be thinking we're still young bla.. blabla... bla... blabla... but what can I say, I LOVE MY CHICK.

Now I'm back, I'm spending as much time with her as I possibly can, cos... sad to say, I'm leaving soon and I'm still not sure when will I be back... the plan was that she goes to Australia too but it seems that FATE is just being a bitch to us. OR maybe it's just a test... I don't know... I'm giving my best to make this relationship work, even though I might be far away. so now, I'm just trying to spend as much time with her... "I don't care" whatever she's doing or whereever she is, I just wanna be there for her, with her... what can I say, I LOVE MY CHICK.

While I was away... her house got broken into, the first thought in my mind was "I hope she wasn't in the house at the time" and wish I was there to take care of her right then and there. lucky she wasn't at home at the time it happened. I just wanted to finish my job and go home to my girl. her gold earings that her dad gave to her, watches, cam's all gone... I knew how much those things meant to her. she was sad, crying... don't tell me you would't cry if shit like that happened to you... i mean you "girls" but guys, just be angry ay... like how I felt when she told me. I just wanted to find those bastards and beat the living shit out of them! till there mamma's can't even recognize them! fucking pussies! calm down.... calm down... calm down... ok... back to reality. you might think I'm being kinda protective and shit. but I'm even like that with my sister, my girl friends, and bestfriends. what can I say, I LOVE MY CHICK.

I'm running out of words and ideas to say, write or think of, to express. dont know if that's the right spelling... the way I feel and love my chick... what can i say...

I LOVE MY CHICK.

"random thoughts"

-feel like eating ice-cream
-I wonder why girls don't fart when they're around people? or do they? maybe they're the silent type... eeEEee yeeee!
-wish I could be in 2 places at one time.
-my bum is numb.... I can't feel them.
-bananasSS.
- I JUST LOVE.... MY CHICK.

heated coversation with myself... I think???

2006-10-18T07:29:00.000-07:00

me and taugey and maybe something els

like i said i was sitting at a coffe shop drinking chinese tea and i couldnt help noticesing a table with 2 man that i think that are business men. well, not really cant notice...its just that they were very loud talking about shit like money money money, how much they have and how much they shit out...

and thats how it all started... business men.

the thing is that i thinking about how maybe most of these guys had to study harder to get where they are now and even when they talk so much shit...its they right. it should be they right to show off even if you dont like it...i dont like it but what to do...they worked hard at it, cheat or what ever, still... you know what i mean.
Well, how do you know he work hard for it??? what if it was given by family? and they just like showing off huh?

He won some, i won some but still, didnt wana lose to each other...come to think of it. i didnt wana lose to my self. sad but true....

the weird thing is that, its not weird! its spooky! ...i kinda dont wana say it coz it might just come back. fuck it, here it is... while we were having our conversation. "why dont you ask them if they worked hard for it or just being dicks" well, i know i didnt say that...and i know taugey didnt say that... coz his me. and i would know if its me if i was talking to myself and THAT wasnt me mates! you know that saying " two's a company and three's a crowed "

thats how i felt man! scared the shit out of me! still does... so i think i'll be sticking to talking to people for now...

fucked up ay...

sometime...alone...is...good

2006-10-17T18:44:00.000-07:00

yesterday, the 3rd day of an almost healthy day. healthy meaning...another with out beer or a trip to the island and actually joging. Almost meaning...still smoking.
Went joging. I'v been trying to make myself jog or go to the gym these days...need to get back to reality. been to the island to much, might go crazy. anyways like i said, went joging but didnt last long tho. since i started, 1 round. thats all!!!! i use to be able to do 4,5,6 max or fucking jog to a x-girlfriends place thats like on the other side of town. ay ya... getting to personal ay. not very good..why this guy being very funny one. So... im walking back, stop by the raya stols to buy a drink and maybe some chiken wings. walking home...thinking to my self...this is good...just me and me. no one els...i was tring to contact me mates to join me or just hang out somewhere but also i just wanted to be alone...and i was some how glad they didnt reply my sms.

what im trying to say is that...some times in life, you just wana be alone. do things alone. sit at a coffe shop drinking chinese tea and just sit there think about what ever you want. nothing els matters! just you and your chinese tea.

Nenen ah....

2006-09-26T22:08:00.000-07:00

guys do not read the post i wrote before this one coz i was in one of my weird EmO words that time. luckily not much people read my blog. i could write so much shit on this blog and no one will know i said it. except for me island friends. so no one will actually know if i said i like to smell my feet and watch bollywood movies, pell dead skin off my body and sometimes eat it, make silly noise just to piss off people around me, lick my lips coz i think it feels like im licking a girl's nipeeee nvm...forget i said that one. i like looking at my girl friends and think of doing dirty thinging with them, scratch my balls, head,feet and smell it, and my favorat one is eat my boggy.

BUT....time to time me other friends do sometimes come in and read my silly blog.
So too bad i cant write the real stupid stuff i do when im bored.

too bad guys! if you thought i was telling you my dirty thoughts...those thoughts are for me to know and you to find out.

peace motherFuckers....

you just got PUNK'D

CHANGE

2006-09-22T10:27:00.000-07:00

Beer...

I love it... loved it...

Smoking...

I love it... still loving it... have to stop...

Clubing...

I love it... still loving it... cant i just go to dance?... ok, stoping...

The Island...

I love it... still loving it... yup, still loving it... nope, no change... Damn, I know! Ok stopping...

why why why... why am i trying to stop all these things... well, for my family info... its not good for my health it seems... well, it is bad. anyways my real reason is coz im going to be starting a progrem soon and i need to be healthy. and actually its also for myself, as i start my new spiritual life. so ya... it may sound corny but its the truth... what am i talking about?
well, i'm talking about changing... changing the way we talk, think, act and attituted towards or around people. change the way we live. aren't you sick of doing the same thing over and over again. like that saying, SSDD(same shit diffrent day). dont you sometimes think about your life and find something missing? i did... but i found mine already. have you found yours? if your looking for it, call this hotline 1800-IAM-LOST. ya right!!! i wIsH!!! only if it could be that easy ay... if it was, i would of called along time ago...
I was asking my self these questions, will it make me a better person if i stop all this...the things i love? in the eyes of people around you, i think yes, in some ways. but attitued na', nope, dont think sOo ... so why should i stop? i didnt have any answers for these question before... now i do and it might not be the same as yours...
Im so so blur right now...maybe im talking shit coz of the downer from the island yesterday. maybe im all these thigs i said means something to you or someone els. maybe im just bored and i cant think of anything to blog about so i write shit about life and emo and shit....
But then, i hope i got you thinking about...

Damn ciki day..."magic hard on"

2006-08-15T11:00:00.000-07:00

Warning: read with an open mind... when you read this weird post, im not trying to say im a player, i can get any chick i want or that girls are just games to play with. well, no im not...so just read and enjoy. Into my mind we goOOoooOOOo.....................................

my story begins like this...

date: 14.08.06

got out of bed, had a "hard on"...well, not going to explan that shit to ya guys..you should know...so anyways i just got up and was fucking late for work but didnt know why i had a damn hard as a rock "loaded gun" same meaning as "hard on" if your wandering. didnt really care tho, it was just SSDD(same shit different day) so got change and went off. like any other day at work. people buying phones, reload cards, handphone numbers and shit like that. but after lunch time, people become abit funny. funny like, the girls were really ciki for some reason. weird... but so i was just like what ever you know. while i was sitting there talking to taugey...i ask taugey, dont you wish you were some of these people here... what are you talking about? you ask... well, i'v been sitting there for about 20minits. and couples young and old were holding hands and going all "In Love" and shit... you think their in love?!!? bullshit mate!!! i bet if you stair, wink, wave or smile at any randam chick 'have to be hot' in here that has boyfriends...the chicks would be like. talking there mind saying shit like, "that guy's cute... or... ya babbe, you want some of this sweet candy ass" some shit like that... justdo it!, come on do it lah man...
OH ya, and another thing...while i was thinking about all this shit...girls were like "hinting and giving me code messages like "they asking for some taugey love!" (english slang) you know what i mean... and you know when some times you just sit there stairing at nothing, and thinking about shit?? well, thats what i did. so when i was stairing at what i thought was NoThinG, this chick that works in this girlly shop across my shop was wearing this green skirt and she thought i was checking her legs out!! so, she turned around.......the funny thing was, it was NOT away! she turned around so i can have a better view of her and ofcos her legs lah and a ciki smile too. So fuck up! that was FreakY mates!!! but very ciki... but when i realize what she was doing, i turn away, some times i wish i didnt hehehe...pretending i didnt see shit but i did and i liked it hehehe. and i swear! i swear mates! that chick...that chick reloaded her phone 3-4 times! AND!!! would only buy it from me!!! freaky chick!! but i have to say, she wasn't ugly. kinda cute in a freaky way.

So back to my first story...So, i did what taugey told me...Do The Impossible. and for some reason, i didnt give a shit if the boyfriends came looking for me. it was crazy!!! so let the games begin!! the first targets were young, cute maybe 18-20 year old girls...i give you 2 tumbs up. but why are ya going for easy little chickidzz. go where no man has gone before! so now targets were young, hot maybe 18-23 years old. bang! bang! bang! bang! bang! 5 down. lets try 3 more... OK,OK,OK... to explan what happen in these events, many of them went down like this... while walking with there boyfriends being in love and shit. i'd just give them the joey look(so how you doing...kinda look) wink,sexy smile...you know, doing what ever to pull them in. but with out saying anything. well, i dont know what a sexy smile is... but you think of one and maybe it looks like that... then 3 of them would pretend not to look/didnt see. but then, at the last minit they would turn back and smile hehehe... the other 2 would come by hinting "call me"...but my favorat one is when this hot chick would walk by again and again till the boyfriend said "so where do you wana go actually!? why are we always passing by here!?" now thats some funny shit mates! then taugey had a great idea. go for hot, Older(as in working ladys or married) i said NO ofcos. but what the fuck right, so i did it. just 3 targets coz i didnt wana get killed by angry husbands. 2 targets "No go" wasnt looking...thats the first. but the last one...she came up to me to buy a reload card "it seems...." then left her biz card( miss linda wong) not naming her company, from Brunai. and she was a hot maMa. if i was 10 years older..hrmmmm.
To proof to my self that it was only for that day...i tried doing it the following day. but Nope...didnt work.

thoughts/questions for that day that needs to be answered.
The point of doing this was? i dont know... whats with that day? i dont know...maybe it was the "hard on". Do you think it was the date of month where girls go sex crazy? dont know... Someone give me an answer. coz that day was fucking cool!!! wish i had more days like that... but ya, it was weird...

I'm CoMiNG i'm COMING OH yes OH yes!!! No....."potong steam"

2006-08-07T19:55:00.000-07:00

just me and taugey.

you know how sometimes you really wana do something but you cant do it coz your not there or you dont have the things to do it Or no money.well, thats what happen to me these few days,weeks... anyhow....well,went to send my computer to be fix'd and i really wanted to blog about the funny shit that has been happening these few days, weeks.....what ever!. anyways, i just had like so much to say right so me and taugey were all ready to write what we were thinking and did, so all was good to go. BUT i forgot that our computer was still with turtle. turtle's at fixing stuff... so me and taugey had to like wait and save more funny shit to write day by day by day till i got my computer back. (backgroundmusic) ha..leluyah ha..leluyah haleluyah haleluyah hale...luyah.
so the next day i was on it, i was ready to blog blog blog blog blog shit shit shit shit shit, write write write write write shit shit shit shit shit. so i was going to let out all the stupid, silly, funny, anger and what ever that i wanted to blog about these few days,weeks! SO...when i got on to write.

(sounds of crikits,cicak,moskito in the back ground)

tok! tok! tok! head empty...dame man just couldnt write shit! well, not shit as in shit, U knw what i mean lah...i just couldnt write what i wanted to fucking write! i had it all planed out. IN THE BotTEM... dame, i need some taugey love! a ticket to the island hehehe.

Oh ya! thats the OTher thing! i was so broke those few days,weeks!!!, StiLL BroKe!!! right so when everyone was on the "trip" to the island. guess who was too broke to go? ME!!! TaUGey!!! so fucked up man....so yesterday i had money to buy a ticket right, but now, alllll goneeee....what happen you ask.... im working in a handphone shop part-time. yes, an ah beng job. but anyways i was showing this guy a memori card thing to put in Handphones right so i turn to ask my boss how much it was. turn back "sir, its 99 ring....git" that motherfucker ran off with it!. i was so piss'd man!!! not coz i have to pay for it...you can find money anyday. its COZ I CANT GET TICKET TO THE ISLAND ON THAT NIGHT! that stupid fuck! if i find that fucker!, im going to make him sell his ASSs every night till pigs can fly!

So what have you learnt to day kids....dont smoke weed!

climbing the gate to get shot.

2006-07-29T23:04:00.000-07:00

me, taugey, turtle and donkey.

8pm
calling turtle.
hey man, you still going out tonight kah?
ya, your not???
fucking go lah its ladys night... girls yaMmmi
dont wan lah, not going out broke again man fuck lah hahaha.
go lah, what els are you going to do tonight?? just go man. i got a ticket for ya haha.
i really didnt wana go out that night was feeling really tired and i was broke. and taugey was giving me crazy thoughts about girls, like always. and turtle keep NagGing me to go out and play tonight. shit, bloody turtle...
me and pinky wingky will pick ya up later, around 10-11pm. so we can fly to the taugey island together hehehe.
yes! the island! (taugey wasnt the only one thinking this, i was too) sometimes when you cant fight them join them.

about 10pm.
so, you guys coming now or what?
cant lah, the pingky wingky is only going later tonight! you go hang out with donkey first then you ask him to pick me up.
this is when the "climax" come's in. so its was about 11pm. donkey had to stop by home to change to look good for the ladys tonight. so Vain!! who isnt right... anyways got to turtle's place about 11.30pm. had to call him about 10 to 15 times and still no answer. i was getting abit pissed off coz his the one NagGing us to go out and play sprinkle on the island! we standing out there for about 30minits still no answer, fuck! bloody turtle! so me and donkey just like, dont care lah! go lah. then 5 minits down the road.
fuck! im climbing his fence! i dont care! bloody turtle drag me out, im draging him out!
back where we were again...hmmm how huh?
climb lah hahaha.
while i was climbing the fence...its damn late, do you think uncle has a gun in the house??? fucking shit! everything went slowmotion while i jump down from the gate. its too late to trun back now.just worry about it later. Stu...Pid! how you going to worry if you get shot and die?!!!? damn...ammm aHHhhh! just wake him up and fuck off. so, i got to his windoor to see the bloody turtle was sleeping nicely there making people wait fucking long out side. woke him up, he got dres but before i could climb the gate i saw a small door by the gate and it wasnt even locked!!!! donkey laughing his head off out side. the same with me in side. climb the gate for nothing! could of just used the door sTu...pid hahaha.

about 12.30am
got to the club, got a ticket to the island so everything was all good after that. as happy as can be. it was ladys night but more guys then girls, shows how sex crazy guys are haha. after partying went to the beach hang out with the me mates till 7am. it was a really good night. lucky i didnt get shot.

The unexpected night, unexpected AsSS. "who's your daddy"

2006-07-25T13:56:00.000-07:00

7pm.
Tuesday night.

taugey, me and turtle.

phone rang.
(turtle)

hey taugey, we going to the island tonight, wana come?
i was so fucking broke man that night, but was really dying to go out!
go out lah... just jump... the island is calling hehe.
so i just sms and told him im damn broke this week dont think i'll be able to go out.
you monkey, i wana go to the island and play with the others!
nvm... but i'll call you later.

about 10pm
phone rang.

i'll pick you up now man.
ya yah we going out!
Guess im going out broke again... i hate going out broke! makes me feel stupid. i dont feel nice in side when my mates buy me drinks. i feel like an asSS... you know what i mean.
so anyways Turtle picks me up.
dont worry about drinks and stuff bro, my friend from penang is going to buy us drinks tonight.
ay.... i like the sound of that. makes me go tingkle inside hehe.
so on the way there, he gave me a ticket to the taugey Island. (background music) deng deng deng.
should i take it? just take it lah, all will be good when we get there... hehe.

About 11.30pm
In the club.

Met turtle's friend, cant say his name, lets just call him macha. he was a short little man that just wanted to get drunk that night coz he hasnt had fun in along time. well, he looked like a nice guy so i started talking to him while turtle was on the phone. but then he got really funny on me, started asking me to do this and that. well, he was buying the drinks so i just like ok, what-ever you know.

BANG!!!

The ticket kicked in! i was in taugey island BuT also i had to entertain macha. bloody hell man! the music was blasting the lights were moving... shit, i was in heaven!!! but still i had to entertain him, fuck!
thats why you... think that you have to do shit for him...

The moral of the story is, if your like me. sometimes feel obliged to a person. fucking dont go out broke! you might just end up becoming someones bitch and not having fun.

But at the end of the night, i had fun... at last, out of the house and back on the island.

Handphone goes rinG riNg

2006-07-24T21:13:00.000-07:00

ME and Taugey
about 4.25pm.
still having my beauty sleep.(background music) twinkal twinkal little star.

(hp ringing) "ring ring,ring ring"

(in my head)man, who the fuck is calling me now!why cant people just let the rockstar sleep for awhile. Kings need there sleep to ya know.

ME and "HER"

just grab my hp,didnt care to look who was calling.hello hellow,what can the king do for you? hey you, still remember me? im calling from kl airport bording the plane soon. im calling coz i miss you...
"i miss you" very deadly words for a brokenheart'd man.sometimes lah,how ever you take it.if your wandering,im talking about me. duh!!! stU...pid. need some 916!!!

Anyways back to the story.
for that 15minits or so i was the happies man alive...thats the thing. it was only for 15minits. fuck!shut up! sometimes you just wana!...nvm.hellow people,like i said the first time dont mind me.i talk to my self some times...(singing a song) thats just the way it is, things will never be the same.thats just the way it is, oh yaaa...Haha i just amuse myself sometimes.
well,she said shes going to bang kok or something then indon the back to kl...
i was like, ok ok...cool cool...man! she just said shes going to kl!! you dick!! Oopss, i didnt hear that.so we just talk lovey dovey stuff. miss u lah,love you lah,wish i could see u lah. STU...pid! Emo na kau!!! ya ya ya...anyways just to let you know,im going to kl in Aug. we going to party bro's!!! asshunters!!...well, she knows this right, i think...so i just ask when is she going to kl???? she said Only early september.you coming to see me??? fuck!!!!!, dame lah...why girls like to potong stim wan.thats why you need some 916!!! hopefully i will be able to stay in kl for awhile longer so i can see her.dame! i miss her...thats why you shouldnt fall in love in the rainforest mates...ending no good.

i cant say anything els coz i dont wana go all Emo on me blog again...with this i end my post "sometime i wish we can love with out loseing but life wouldnt be fun would it???"

she's leaving...

2006-07-22T03:27:00.000-07:00

me and taugey.

standing on the beach looking out to the sea. hoping, wandering she could see me from the other side. just meaning less, desperate dreams...
Coz really, i was just sitting in my room. how sad, yes! very sad! why am i killing my self over this? i dont even know... you think this is love? i do... but maybe its coz the downer just kick in from the taugeyPill i had a day ago hehehe... she tacks me yesterday to tell me she's having fun in sabah, wish she had rowlys and that she has to go back UK soon. (back ground music) dang dang dang... i didnt think she would leave that early. was planing to meet them in kl in Aug20th."them" as in her and friends...
So this means what??? i know what it means, but i just dont want to say it! just say it, you'll feel better. i wont get to see her off! there, you said it... feel better? well, NO! i feel the same... anyways, for the people reading this. if your lost in what im saying. dont get freak out, some times i talk to my self and it wouldnt be fair to taugey if i left my thoughts out. well, thats what i think lah...anyways back into my head. well, what i wanted to do was when i meet her in kl.spend sometime to get to know her even better and get romantic and shit! and do something crazy like sing the "jet plane song" when she leaves hehehhee. im joking! about all of it! im not that lame man. yes you are hehe. sorry guys i cant tell you my plans coz i dont want you people copy my shit... your not going to see her! so just tell lah, oh wait i know... coz im you hehe nvm. i should stop talking to my self... well, now i dont have that time!!! guess it wasnt ment to be... i wish i could cry, maybe i might just feel better. but i cant cry, fuck!!

i think, thats all im thinking. just some Emo shit!! not very health, i know. but i actually feel abit better letting it all out. now, i need to go out for a smoke and a beer.
always the 2nd best medicine....
the best is a redbull and a taugeypill....high in the sky in taugey island with my best friends penguin,turtle,tadpole and all the other alter Ego where ever they are.

the best night ever....but not a good ending

2006-07-20T12:28:00.000-07:00

i go to the rainforest almost every year and this was,i think is my last time.for a while la...coz i think by next year my mates will all be some where too far to come down but i dont think i'd be here i think.anyways...this rainforest was so good not coz of the bands,well ya la but it was so dame good to see my home town friends,cuzens,miri mates,old mates from the gym,bestfriends and friends that came to kching just to party.from OziLand,England,kl and singapura,USA and canada....its was so great to see and party with them! now that!, u cant buy man...1 or 2 mates couldnt make it but it was all good theres always a next time.i got to make new friends and found out how much to drink and not to drink.well, i knew already but found out again hehe.i have pic's, but will put it on when i have time.
well,i'd say the 2nd night was the best out of all the night. not saying the music wasnt good.it was so so good you guys out there wish you were there!!!fuck i should get paid for promoting rainforest haha.anyways,well, u know when your so fucking ready to party hard and the music isnt there to keep you jumping? well,thats what i mean....so on the secound night i went abit late but it was just in time for some jumping party music.everyone was dancing,jumpig ,singing along....the best thing was,no one cared who everyone els was...everyone just wanted to party.i was so high in the sky that night! i just wanted to dance! dance! dance!...guys out there...u have to know all the girls there were eye poping well,maybe i was just drunk but im sure they were hot haha...everyne was there old young...i think i was dancing with some old dutch or english lady that night...i cant remember much hehe. i think my ass hert in the morning hahaha joking.
well,my story ends like this...3 nights in rainforest i just wanted to get laid if thats how u speall i think...fuck it. anyways all i wanted to do was get laid,drunk,make new friends and remember what i did hehe.well, the unbeliveble thing happens...i fell in love and to fall in love in rainforest is so so fucking wrong!yes,people i know you wana see how she looks like i'll have the pic's soon mates.anyways i never thought i would fall in love her coz she loves pocke dots,has a very eritating laugh,rud and shes just cute. and i fell in love!! fuck man...dont ask,i dont know how it happend...im not trying to say anything bad about her ok,i love this girl...she makes me tingkel in side.the story ends here....it will never work.im here in "borneo" thats what english people call sarawak...its pretti funny. "N" shes going to be back in England in a few months time.love sucks huh...thats why i said...fall in love in rainforest bad news people.unles if they from the same country or something. but i wouldnt want to wish this on anyone.lets just say it feel like a knife to your heart and breaks apart of it inside and you cant take it out unles she takes it out. u know what i mean!!!....
anyways this is my first blog EVER! dont mind my bad spealling or what not,or bad words,or words like ya lah, or just lah.im from sarawak cant help it...my name "taugeypill" its just a inside joke....gtg now 4.41am already...need sleep,wait till the morning comes for new farytalls to tell...good morning people.hope you like or dont like my blog.