CHANGE

Beer...

I love it... loved it...

Smoking...

I love it... still loving it... have to stop...

Clubing...

I love it... still loving it... cant i just go to dance?... ok, stoping...

The Island...

I love it... still loving it... yup, still loving it... nope, no change... Damn, I know! Ok stopping...

why why why... why am i trying to stop all these things... well, for my family info... its not good for my health it seems... well, it is bad. anyways my real reason is coz im going to be starting a progrem soon and i need to be healthy. and actually its also for myself, as i start my new spiritual life. so ya... it may sound corny but its the truth... what am i talking about?
well, i'm talking about changing... changing the way we talk, think, act and attituted towards or around people. change the way we live. aren't you sick of doing the same thing over and over again. like that saying, SSDD(same shit diffrent day). dont you sometimes think about your life and find something missing? i did... but i found mine already. have you found yours? if your looking for it, call this hotline 1800-IAM-LOST. ya right!!! i wIsH!!! only if it could be that easy ay... if it was, i would of called along time ago...
I was asking my self these questions, will it make me a better person if i stop all this...the things i love? in the eyes of people around you, i think yes, in some ways. but attitued na', nope, dont think sOo ... so why should i stop? i didnt have any answers for these question before... now i do and it might not be the same as yours...
Im so so blur right now...maybe im talking shit coz of the downer from the island yesterday. maybe im all these thigs i said means something to you or someone els. maybe im just bored and i cant think of anything to blog about so i write shit about life and emo and shit....
But then, i hope i got you thinking about...