heated coversation with myself... I think???

me and taugey and maybe something els

like i said i was sitting at a coffe shop drinking chinese tea and i couldnt help noticesing a table with 2 man that i think that are business men. well, not really cant notice...its just that they were very loud talking about shit like money money money, how much they have and how much they shit out...

and thats how it all started... business men.

the thing is that i thinking about how maybe most of these guys had to study harder to get where they are now and even when they talk so much shit...its they right. it should be they right to show off even if you dont like it...i dont like it but what to do...they worked hard at it, cheat or what ever, still... you know what i mean.
Well, how do you know he work hard for it??? what if it was given by family? and they just like showing off huh?

He won some, i won some but still, didnt wana lose to each other...come to think of it. i didnt wana lose to my self. sad but true....

the weird thing is that, its not weird! its spooky! ...i kinda dont wana say it coz it might just come back. fuck it, here it is... while we were having our conversation. "why dont you ask them if they worked hard for it or just being dicks" well, i know i didnt say that...and i know taugey didnt say that... coz his me. and i would know if its me if i was talking to myself and THAT wasnt me mates! you know that saying " two's a company and three's a crowed "

thats how i felt man! scared the shit out of me! still does... so i think i'll be sticking to talking to people for now...

fucked up ay...

sometime...alone...is...good

yesterday, the 3rd day of an almost healthy day. healthy meaning...another with out beer or a trip to the island and actually joging. Almost meaning...still smoking.
Went joging. I'v been trying to make myself jog or go to the gym these days...need to get back to reality. been to the island to much, might go crazy. anyways like i said, went joging but didnt last long tho. since i started, 1 round. thats all!!!! i use to be able to do 4,5,6 max or fucking jog to a x-girlfriends place thats like on the other side of town. ay ya... getting to personal ay. not very good..why this guy being very funny one. So... im walking back, stop by the raya stols to buy a drink and maybe some chiken wings. walking home...thinking to my self...this is good...just me and me. no one els...i was tring to contact me mates to join me or just hang out somewhere but also i just wanted to be alone...and i was some how glad they didnt reply my sms.

what im trying to say is that...some times in life, you just wana be alone. do things alone. sit at a coffe shop drinking chinese tea and just sit there think about what ever you want. nothing els matters! just you and your chinese tea.